Today is a really emotional day for me.
I have been going through some things with someone who I used to be really close to growing up. We grew apart and now I'm trying to reconnect with her and she is giving me the ultimate bitch treatment. I partially deserve it. But a part of me is like damn when did she become like this? But I think I would have been pissed for a few days and then give her some shit but then because of what I THOUGHT we shared I would have eventually caved. But no dice. I guess I was expecting too much.
So needless to say the whole thing is just bringing old feelings and old emotions to the surface. Feelings that were too ugly to go through then, much less to be enduring them now. I feel like shit because I was such a terrible friend to her, but I can't go back and change that. I can only move forward but of course she won't do that.
She wants to rehash.
I can't rehash. That's shit I'm trying to leave behind.
She wants to go through the old "you did this to me" and "you should have done this" or "or you could have said this", I'm like ok...hindsight is 20/20, coulda, shoulda, woulda, but I can't. UGH. Am I expecting too much? Maybe I am. Perhaps I should just walk away....
I think I will write her a letter, spend the whole weekend doing it...mail it off and if that doesn't get the whole thing resolved then I will move on.
I have been going through some things with someone who I used to be really close to growing up. We grew apart and now I'm trying to reconnect with her and she is giving me the ultimate bitch treatment. I partially deserve it. But a part of me is like damn when did she become like this? But I think I would have been pissed for a few days and then give her some shit but then because of what I THOUGHT we shared I would have eventually caved. But no dice. I guess I was expecting too much.
So needless to say the whole thing is just bringing old feelings and old emotions to the surface. Feelings that were too ugly to go through then, much less to be enduring them now. I feel like shit because I was such a terrible friend to her, but I can't go back and change that. I can only move forward but of course she won't do that.
She wants to rehash.
I can't rehash. That's shit I'm trying to leave behind.
She wants to go through the old "you did this to me" and "you should have done this" or "or you could have said this", I'm like ok...hindsight is 20/20, coulda, shoulda, woulda, but I can't. UGH. Am I expecting too much? Maybe I am. Perhaps I should just walk away....
I think I will write her a letter, spend the whole weekend doing it...mail it off and if that doesn't get the whole thing resolved then I will move on.
1 Comments:
if she was a good friend to you she could havs said her peace and moved on.
a good friend doesnt run you though the mud like that. so really what kind of friend is she to you. you might want to think of that...........
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