Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I have officially moved into my new position and all sorts of things have been going wrong. The database is NOT co-operating and then my operations manager accidently deleted a file I need to work off. LOL. All things considered I am surprised I didn’t get rained on. Lol. I am going to push on I know that the first few weeks in any position is the hardest, its when you have to figure out how to freak things and get them done right so now that I am here, I will do what I have to do to make it through, make my deadlines and get this book out ON TIME!
It was hotter than blazes yesterday, Hot and muggy for no reason at all. UGH. Its sooo nasty. I like the heat but the humidity can go. I had planned to go to all these events in the park and all that but who wants to sit out in the sweltering heat and melt away? Not I said the Cat. Lol
My sister has moved from Jamaica and she will be living in NYC for now, she is trying to go to grad school but right now she is just trying to find a job. I am supposed to be going over there to hang out with her and chill a bit this weekened. She needs to money to buy a bed which I will have to check into my funds and see how my money is looking since I just paid of two of my credit cards…she should have caught me before I did all that. Lol. But I am sure I will be able to swing something but again we will see. My brother is coming down from Canada this weekend too so we will get the chance to all hang out which doesn’t happen too often.
Long story short, we are siblings, different moms, same dad….HMMM…we are all born the same year one after the other each 2 weeks apart, in the same hospital in Jamaica….aint that a blip??? LOL So now we are adults and while I didn’t know them growing up they are a part of my life now. The only thing is and I suppose this is due to a lot of reasons which I wont go into but I didn’t know them or my dads side of the family growing up. So now its very hard for me to be over there all the time because in my mind I feel like I don’t really know them. I mean we are family but like I wouldn’t cry, fart or go without taking a shower for a day in front of them, which in mind is a clear indication that your connected. Lol. Excuse my warped sense of justification. But yea I know them but I don’t know them. And sometimes I am ok with that but other times Im like damn that’s kinda messed up. So since my sister is here, I have pledged to make the effort to go over there often and spend time with not only her but with them.
It was hotter than blazes yesterday, Hot and muggy for no reason at all. UGH. Its sooo nasty. I like the heat but the humidity can go. I had planned to go to all these events in the park and all that but who wants to sit out in the sweltering heat and melt away? Not I said the Cat. Lol
My sister has moved from Jamaica and she will be living in NYC for now, she is trying to go to grad school but right now she is just trying to find a job. I am supposed to be going over there to hang out with her and chill a bit this weekened. She needs to money to buy a bed which I will have to check into my funds and see how my money is looking since I just paid of two of my credit cards…she should have caught me before I did all that. Lol. But I am sure I will be able to swing something but again we will see. My brother is coming down from Canada this weekend too so we will get the chance to all hang out which doesn’t happen too often.
Long story short, we are siblings, different moms, same dad….HMMM…we are all born the same year one after the other each 2 weeks apart, in the same hospital in Jamaica….aint that a blip??? LOL So now we are adults and while I didn’t know them growing up they are a part of my life now. The only thing is and I suppose this is due to a lot of reasons which I wont go into but I didn’t know them or my dads side of the family growing up. So now its very hard for me to be over there all the time because in my mind I feel like I don’t really know them. I mean we are family but like I wouldn’t cry, fart or go without taking a shower for a day in front of them, which in mind is a clear indication that your connected. Lol. Excuse my warped sense of justification. But yea I know them but I don’t know them. And sometimes I am ok with that but other times Im like damn that’s kinda messed up. So since my sister is here, I have pledged to make the effort to go over there often and spend time with not only her but with them.
8 Comments:
Yo, that's real cool. I have siblings from my father as well. It was not until sometime this year that I learned that one lived right here in the United States. I've refused to get to know her and I want nothing to do with that part of the family. It's unhealthy to be like that though as a "Christian". So, this post resonates with me on many different levels. If for any reason at all, it's just great to learn about others. If I can get into the lives of strangers, then I should have little problem getting into the lives of "half blood"
Cee
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I tried to get to know my half-brother, but the relationship never developed. In my case, it was for the best.
Wow! Talk about having a lot on your plate. Hang in there!
awww...things'll get easier as you get used to the position...
and that's cool that you're good with your half-brother and sister....I dont even talk to mine *he's in Barbados*
God for you girl!!! I regret not getting to know my dad's "other" son...........now that my dad and his mom have passed....it will be really hard to find him!!!
I applaud you for your efforts!!!
I totally understand where you're coming from! My dad wasnt around growing up and his family didnt really make an effort to remain in my life so I really dont know them.
My brother (my dad's son) and I are begining to forge a relationship, but it's not a tight relationship. More like an aquaintence, which is really weird since we're blood.
All of that to say, if you spend enough time with your sis you'll eventually get to the place where you guys are at the very least good friends!
Blessings!
Lambchop (Chops)~
i got the half-sibling thing too. my younger brother's like 6 months younger than me, we were in the same year at primary school ut i havent seen him since like 92
Sounds like you're in for fun at IKEA!
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