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X-Tiger

Saturday, April 30, 2005


Aight, So I told you about the whole fiasco with my ipod. So yesterday I decided to take my lazy ass over to Spring Street to the Soho store to take said ipod to get looked at and fixed. I checked it again at 4 before I headed over there and it was still saying NO DATA. I take the trek over there which aint good cuz then I see all the stores that I like to blow my money in and I got distracted....*sigh* - By the way...my birthday is coming up and I know what I want...lol. I saw the cutest briefcase/laptop bag thingie that I loved...damn near $400...Hustle that up...ya'll know what to do. lol.
Anyway...I get to the store and NO lie there was a LINE! I mean along line...around the damn corner, hugging the building ALLLLL the way back! Oh hell no. They weren't letting anyone unless you joined the line. So I stood there scratching my head like WTF - I just want to drop the damn thing off! But I knew from looking at the bouncers at the door (yea bouncers---for the apple store *SMH*) that I couldn't take them. I started to the back of the line when I saw a girl I went to H.S with and I was like hey girl...I'm with you. lol
We chatted a bit and got ushered into the store where the resident bopsie twins tell me the Genius bar is CLOSED because of the new X-tiger OS system they were launching that day so I was basically stuck. WHAT? But he asked to see my ipod anyway to see if he could do anything to it and Lo and Behold I pull it out and the shit is working. All 1300 songs are there....I said aint that a blip...
But I'm taking it back after I make this appointment online so that they can still look at it. But on a positive note....I reconnected with an old buddy from H.S. and I think I twisted her arm enough to get her to come to the next bookclub meeting. So we shall see.

Oh yeah Aveda had this event at their store on Spring today, I got an special invite cuz I subscribe to Marie Claire Magazine and all - Yay! So I went over there, I couldn't stay for the whole massage/facial thing cuz a sista is busy... but I did get a free gift- rolling my eyes- some body wash and a list of their prices. lol. Turns out I MISSED their EARTH DAY sale which I was mad about cuz they sell all their stuff CHEAP! HOT. Anyway, their corp office is located in my building so I hustled up the 17th floor where I proceeded to try and sweet talk the security guard. He took my info and gave it to a girl who worked there and she called me and basically told me to wait till next year. BUT the guard had some stuff...the rosemary mint shampoo and conditioner that he had gotten for an ex...and since she the ex he gave it to me. Wasnt that sweet. I thought it was. So I'm gonna give him a thank you card on Monday and let him know anytime he want some sunglasses or something to let me know and I will see what I can do for him. Errbody loves hot sunglasses. lol I have rambled enough....
Adios

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Line For X-Tiger

Friday, April 29, 2005



AppleStore Posted by Hello

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Still Going


Still going Posted by Hello

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And Going


AND GOING Posted by Hello

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never eat alone

Thursday, April 28, 2005


I am reading this book never eat alone for my bookclub, and at first I was not looking forward to it because it didn't seem like the kind of book I would be interested in. But it is so interesting. He puts alot of great ideas out there about creating friendships and relationships in the business world that will enrich your whole life.
I think my favorite part is when he says to write down all the things you want to accomplish in life. Writing them down instantly changes them from a dream into a plan. He said the people who actually write their plans down and the individual steps they are going to take, are more likely to complete their goals.

So I am going to sit down and do that.
What are your plans for life?
What do you see yourself doing?
Do you have it clearly mapped out?

I had to choose a restaurant for this thing and it's always hard cuz I don't know what everyone wants to eat. But I came across this place http://www.komegashi.com/komegashi3/main.html.
I'm loving it! only thing the food they serve there wouldn't even tickle my stomach...and it seems to pricey. lol.But the place is beautiful so I thought I would share it.

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Ipod Blues

Oh how the madness continues.
Monday when I came home my brother and his lax ass managed to flood the entire upstairs...all that water came through the floors and drenched my room. I had to take my rug outside, my floors were all wet and water also came down in the kitchen. My side table which has my chargers for my cell phone and my Ipod were on my table and I'm not sure if they got wet or not but today I have knowledge that proves that it did get wet.
How do you ask? My IPOD IS OUT OF COMMISSSION. I tried to play it this morning on the train and nothing. Everything was wiped out. NOW I am MADDER than a hornet. He better stay outta my way. I told my mother this morning that if I cant get it fixed.....somebody and I don't are who is gonna have to cough up my 315.25. lol. I dont know that that was the EXACT cost but what the hell ever.
He is is just lax with everything...life, school, everything. Well when I get home I am gonna put my ipod on the table and tell him he owes me 315.25 and I want my money NOW. Think Clair Huxtable when Sandra told her she was gonna work in the Wilderness Store. LOL. or one of them Huxtable kids...cant remember which one.
I'm not as mad now as when I started writing this....but I will keep you guys informed.

I have to check out the whole fixing policy they have for ipods cuz it hasnt been a year yet. I will figure it out...

http://www.ipodlounge.com http://www.apple.com/ipod/

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Mama Never Said There Would Be Days Like This...

Wednesday, April 27, 2005


Today I am wistfully hoping that McDonalds would deliver to my house.

I could scarf down a 2 cheeseburger meal with EXTRA large Fries and a Strawberry Shake.... and then roll my ass over in bed and watch these skinny heifers on Americas Next Top Model (ANTM). SMH. Rantings and Ravings from the Fat Girl is what I should call this blog. As for Keenyah on ANTM or however you spell her name...her "fatness" oh please give me a break... if I had her body or her stomach for that matter I would go to work everyday in a two piece..ERRDAY. God knows why he doesn't make everyone skinny, some of us...ok me...wouldnt EVEN know how to act. FA REAL. lol

I have actually been eating well this week but this weather right CHEA...the rainy gloom is making me wanna eat and lounge around in bed under the heavy down comforter...watch tv & then drool myself into a food como. HMM.

Rain also brings back memories...good ones and bad ones...You know like cuddling up under that same comforter with the one and I love...my first kiss was in the rain... and a whole bunch of other stuff.

As you can tell, I'm moody...as usual. tata!

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Between Life and Death

I believe in a lot of things and I believe in a power higher than ourselves... I believe in God.

But sometimes it's so hard to hold on to the spirit of something you can only feel and faintly hear when you want so much to see and to touch, especially in the face of things in life that seem to horrific.

I know that we are imperfectly born into an imperfect world and so our chances of being what we were created to be is that much harder. But death and dying...and those teetering on the brink of life and death are one of the things that make me so sad.

I have an acquantaince whose mother just recently died from cancer, I have close friend who has lupus and today another friend called to tell me she suffered a seizure and had a mild stoke and she also has sickle cell anemia. She is 27. I wish I could do something for her...for all those whose life are marred with disease and inevitably have to deal with the pain their diseases cause.

You live and you die...but what do you do in between...?

http://www.volunteermatch.com

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Broken Hearted

Monday, April 25, 2005


Someone I know and love once told me that even though she has known me for years, sometimes she feels like she knows nothing about me at all. At the time it hit me as being odd, but after much intraspection, I realized that I do at times have a tendency to keep even the ones I love the most at bay. This isnt't something I do intentionally or at least I don't think so. I guess I just feel like I want to deal with things myself. I know without a doubt that alot of times I don't tell my friends things out of the need to NOT be judged, and more often than not I hang on to my deepest and most painful secrets because I don't want anyone to use those secrets against me. I however, want my friends to come to me with all of their problems and I'm usually good at solving other people's problems before I can solve my own.

I didn't realize how the impact of having someone that you respect, love and have built a relationship with, NOT trust you enough to come to with something their struggling with. The fact is it hurts.

I have been through some real BULLSHIT relationships. Whether it be lover or friend and I have had ALOT of people who I trusted with my heart, just do some real messed up things. And I guess it has impacted me more than I would like to believe. But my thing is now the people I trust....they are like family. I would do anything for them, and I would like to think the feeling is mutual.

I'm rambling. But someone I love and trust didnt feel like they could come to me with something and in short it left me soooo broken hearted. I will get over it. I always do but I guess I am just really dissapointed. I want to ask what I did but I don't think it was me...maybe it is. I dunno. I'm rocking on 2.5 hours of sleep and I have a pounding headache and my stomach is a mess. Sometimes I wish that I was like these girls out here that nothing bothers them, I would be great right now. lol ahh well
Aint Life Grand.

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1:41 PM

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HOT LIKE FIRE

Wednesday, April 20, 2005


Man oh man--its hot outside today. In NYC it is 87 degrees and I am so loving it.

After work today I am gonna head over to Macy's and shop a little...or maybe not. I am kinda tired. I dunno yet...I shall have to see.

I used to get my eyebrows waxed all the time, but then the lady I went to seemed like she was serving the entire metropolitan area. I mean the wait was out of control. They installed a # system... I mean really, you have to take a number. One day I went in and there was a younger girl and an older lady waiting and they started to argue. The younger girl told the older lady she was going to smack her in her face.... :-O What???
I couldn't believe it!. Kids today have no manners...after that I stopped going. I loved the lady Caroline who did them, but that was just too much for me. So now I get my eyebrows threaded and it's the bomb! It's always so clean and in my opinion it last much longer than the waxing. I can go 3 weeks--with daily pluckings of course- moreso than the waxing. Maybe I will go today.

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Word of the Day

Tuesday, April 19, 2005


When I was younger, and still to this day sometimes, I would flip through the dictionary. I would find words and share them with my mom...people usually didnt care lol but hey, what can you do. I will share for those who are into that kinda stuff.

The word for the day is:

pul·chri·tu·di·nous - Characterized by or having great physical beauty and appeal.

The root if this word is: pul·chri·tude

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12:23 PM

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Young vs. Old.

Monday, April 18, 2005


If I was the kind of women that got pleasure from taking from other people without giving in return and with no conscience, then I would be rich.

Lemme 'Plain

I ride the train to and fro everyday. I get bored so I watch people and occasionally I noticed that I am being watched as well. Now I am the type of person that when I catch someone staring...I don't look away. I stare right back. This usually results in the ill-stare down competition, that I must say I am GOOD at. I have forfeited a few times by sticking my tongue out (yes at random strangers...especially lil kids...they like that), or I just look away. Yesterday though, on my way home I was sitting on the train and realized that this man was STARING HARD. So I proceeded to stare back, but then my contacts started drying out (lol) so I shut my eyes for a little bit. When I opened them he was still staring. Now he is old enough to be my dad, maybe even my granddad....and I do see that older men have the penchant for trying to pick up younger women. But more than that I know women who date older men for several reasons....It could be love...but most often that not...it's the lovely moolah. Old men aren't going out spending frivolously. They are saving...penny pinching kinda men; they buy houses, invest, have 401K's and good credit. But above all, they are horny old men. You know being married to someone for years...sex is gone. But apparently men still wanna have monkey sex when they are old and the perfect solution to them is a young "spring chicken". So they are always on the hunt, or rather so it seems. They like to flirt be flirted with and if you let them take it that much further then hell why not. Older men are typically, more mature. Sometimes. So for a girl who likes to have intelligent convo and they like to be settle, that’s a good thing cuz Lord knows some of these brothers out here are like Johnny Appleseed, sowing their wild oats all over the damn place.

I know people who are in their 20's dating men in their 70's, which to me is plain GROSS! But if you are young and your waiting for your “lover” to die then you got time and you got patience. It’s so sad to see an old man clinging to youth and his child bride. UGH.

Would you ever date an older man? A man who is 10, 20, 30, 40, maybe even 50 years older than you? Let me be the first to answer:

I am 26. I would date a man who is 10-20 years older than me. 30-50 years older than me? Oh Hell NAH. I have 2 reasons. I have dated someone who was 10 years older than me before and it didn’t last long, he was sexy as hell, but he acted like he was my daddy. Always telling me how I should do things and talking to me like I was a 5 year old, I don’t play that mess. I like to feel that my partner and I should be growing together so having someone who thinks they are the oracle or something doesn’t leave mush room for that. Then there is my biggest fear of all. That I will marry the love of my life and they will die shortly after. I am terrified of that. That’s why I am so hell bent on getting L to the doctor all the time and nagging him about his eating and trying to get him to exercise. If I marry a man who is 50…well hell….how much time do we really have…and what about kids…? As you can see I am slightly neurotic….but I have thought about these things THOROUGHLY. So I am interested in hearing what you have to

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Beautiful Sunday

Sunday was GLORIOUS!
The weather was great.....the sun was shining and I was feeling good.
I cleaned my bathroom and my room up, and then took all my books back to the library, which was no small thing. I had a whole BUNCH of books! Then I took my mom to get the rest of her birthday present, which was basically the whole MAC experience. They did her face and then I got all the stuff for her. Most of which I have to now go back and get for myself, she looked good ya'll. She had this other lady there who happened to be walking by and the lady stopped and watch my mom and kept telling her how nice it looked. Thats peace right there. We went to Walmart and got some spray bottles so I could make some spritz for our hair (I will put the recipe up on my other blog). We walked around the mall a bit and then headed home.

I fell asleep

Then got up because I had to twist my moms hair....which I'm getting really good at. I got some aloe vera gel which gave her hair a really nice shine and made it easy to twist. I'm tryig to get her to wear a twist out but she is fighting me on it. I shall PREVAIL! MUAHAHAHA

That boy on Desperate Housewives is a MESS! he is plotting and planning to make his moms life a living hell...that aint even right. I'm loving this show for real, now I'm just waiting for them to get a black housewife on there...shucks!

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Late Night Early Morning

Sunday, April 17, 2005


It's late but I have been up all day looking at natural hair care sites and all that. I started another section of my blog for those who asked me about the apple cide vinegar rinse and for pics on my braids that I got. So if you click on my profile, you will see the other blog that I have linked to this one. The recipe is on there.....
Im getting sleepy but I have a big day ahead of me. I plan on going to the gym then taking my mom for the second part of her birthday present, which is buying makeup at MAC. Then I am going to The Home Depot to buy a paragon water filter to make my hard water soft :-). I plan on doing some cleaning and cooking somewhere in there as well. It's a shame how weekends fly you know.

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It's getting kinda hectic

Friday, April 15, 2005


Work, for the past few weeks, has been hectic. I go in early, I leave late, I got knots in my shoulders and my back and have a huge headache...there is no way on God's green earth this is healthy.
I find myself actively trying to take deep breaths but to no avail and it wasn't until the work was almost over that I started to relax. There has to be a better way.

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La La La La :-)

Wednesday, April 13, 2005


Music is my solace these days..it makes the day go by a lot smoother...So since I'm jamming I wanna share it with ya'll too. Enjoy this song, I'm really really feeling it. The verdict is out on the full album, so we shall see. Im also listening to this guy name Gavin McGraw...OK! He remade Sam Cookes "A Change is gonna Come", and I'm sorry but he smoked it...especially on the stripped version....HOTNESS! Also, I'm vibing to a Miles Davis "Love Songs" cd...I had it before but it got stolen from my brother so I had to rebuy it. I love it. I listen to it at night when I am trying to go to sleep. It is beautiful. Ok nuff bout music...enjoy the lyrics.


Ohhhhhh Ohhhhhh
[Verse 1]
Now I done felt a lot of pain
I done seen a lot of things
I’m struggling and broken heart to fancy cars (oh yeah)
And even though my money change
I tried my best to stay the same
but you know with more money more problems came
[Chorus]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn’t take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I’ve learned so much from my mistakes that’s how I know He is watching me
[Verse 2]
In ATL I caught a case
and the media tried to say
I had a habit I couldn’t manage
and I am throwing my life away
But everything ain’t what it seems
just because its on TV
Cuz they speculate and exaggerate for a better story
[Chorus]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn’t take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I’ve learned so much from my mistakes that’s how I know he is watching me
[Bridge]
Nobody knows what life may bring
It might make you happy it might make you sad
Sometimes yeah
but I know there’s a reason for everything (but I know)
That’s why I keep believing
Whatever is meant to be its going to be
[Chorus (2x)]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn’t take away the rain
Cuz I know it make me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I’ve learned so much from my mistakes that’s how I know he is watching me

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Word of Advice

"Don't Die In the Shit You're Laying In"

The Roots - Adrenaline

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"What We Resist Persists"

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


This is my year…. for re-inventing and re-building.

This morning I was on the train I took a quick quiz and failed. It was an article in the March issue of the Oprah magazine, a line stuck out; it read “what we resist persists”
It talks about the things we almost know…the things that we try to bury and no matter how hard we try to bury them…they linger and nudge at us and the only way to truly overcome is to do something about it.

I KNOW that I have some issues that I don’t ever want to face. And even though I don’t address them the influence of these issues are apparent in everything I do. Sometimes I make excuses for them and other times, they manifest themselves in ways that are too difficult to explain. For the record, I’m not crazy.

Sometimes I’m cool with things and then like 2 days later I will totally not be cool with it. It drives me crazy……or the things that I admire in people can also be the things that make me deeply sad about my own life.

For instance, I know someone who has a daughter; He is a great father. He takes care of her, gets her on their assigned weekends, kisses her, hugs her, calls her by the cutest little nicknames. And when I see it, it makes me happy that she has the experience of having a father growing up that she knows loves and cares for her. Other times, I watch them and it makes me incredible sad. Sad to the point that I want to burst out into tears, and sometimes I do…I just excuse myself.

I have a WONDERFUL step-dad….he has always been there for me when I was growing up, he was the only dad I ever knew, until I was 10. Then the man who gave me his name showed up and I guess wanted to claim his position as my father. The question was where the hell were you been for 10 years? He would take me to events with his side of the family, show me off as his fully grown daughter…all the while it’s like you had nothing to do with it. In fact, if it had been left up to him, I would have probably been dead. (really there is a store behind that, that I wont get into) But at that time, I was just excited. Excited to meet the man who shared my last name, excited to learn the things about myself that I could never explain and so on the weekends when was supposed to come get me, a sista was packed and ready waiting. I was 16 and I hadn’t seen him for a few weeks, he was supposed to come and pick me up and I waited, and waited, and waited….he called to say he was running behind and he would be there soon….I waited and waited and waited and he never showed up. I sat at the edge and I cried tears I never even knew I had. It wasn’t the first time…but I was so upset, so hurt and just tired of him always letting me down.

I have for the most part I have let it go….but I haven’t. Even to this day if I have a boyfriend that tells me he is going to do something and doesn’t it makes me SOOO mad and I mean seething. It’s something I need to let go of…I need to heal and move on. So in the coming weeks along with all the other things I plan for myself, I want to take the time for me and sit down and talk to a therapist maybe a psychiatrist. This along with a lot of other things in the past I want to just talk it through and get on my path to healing. Get over it and move beyond. It’s not going to be easy because I know there is a stigma that black people don’t do go to psychiatrists but to hell with that. Plus I need to do it so I can hide it from my mom, I just think she would take it personally and I don’t want her to be hurt.

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1:30 PM

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Far Away by Kindred the Family

Thursday, April 07, 2005


I'm feeling this song right Here....Enjoy
1.
I'm tired of broken street glass.
Not gettin' no ass unless the babies sleep.
But even then it seems like we're tryin' to creep.
Tired of payin' taxes, sendin' emails and faxes.
Tired of crook cops.
Tired of black folk complain that crime don't stop.
I wanna go to a place where lovers go.
Do the things that lovers do.
No stress.
A sweet caress from me to you.
I wanna do the things we used to do.
Say the things we used to say.
Just like, everyday all day.
(Chorus)
Far away from here
Far away from here
Far away from here
Just jump in a taxi cab, pack a bag and get away fast.
Far away from here
Far away from here
Far away from here
Just jump in a taxi cab, pack a bag and get away fast.

2.
Tired of late subway trains.
Tired of undeserved fame.
Tired of watchin' somethin' on the T.V. doin' nothin'
Doin' nothin' (echo)
I'd rather be lookin' at ya.
I'd rather be layin' with ya
I don't wanna forget all the love we captured the day we met.
I wanna go to a place where lovers go.
Do the things that lovers do.
No Stress.
A sweet caress from me to you.
I wanna do the things we used to do.
Say the things we used to say.
Just lay, everyday all day
(Chorus)
(Musical Vamp)

(Chorus) Repeat 2X Fade out

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11:13 PM

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HMM

I wrote it on the train and as I typed it up, I started to cry. Probably because these past few days I have been extremely sappy, chalk it up to hormones perhaps, but I have been overly sensitive of late. I cried cuz I remembered. The way I felt in college, when I was being lied to by the people who I cared about. Always feeling like shit, being angry all the time, being hurt, being unsure....always unsure. Feeling like I deserved to be treated that way cuz.....I dunno...maybe I did something wrong. I blamed myself most of the time....there was alot of if I had done this then maybe....and if I had done that then maybe....
There were alot of maybe's. Too many conditions...not enough honesty. Too much of some things and not enough of others. And I was reminded of the strength that I lacked, and how hard it was for me to just walk away, because I knew I deserved better, but I didn't have the strength to be alone....and to just walk away. I have a friend who had the strength recently to walk away and I can't tell you how proud and sightly jealous I was when she did. She did what I didn't have the strength to do ya know....and I respect it.

Yesterday I went to the circus with L and his family and I love them, they are great people. Afterwards, we walked his grandma home and walked in the middle of the street holding hands. He drove me home, all the while I'm holding onto the door for dear life cuz he drives like a lunatic, he spent the night. You know when shit feels right....We talked...it's been almost 2 years since we have been together and why does it feel like the time has flown over my head and under my feet.

Yo I still get butterflies in my stomach when I see him.

I want to kiss him all night, just touch him....be near to him...just hug him for hours.

EWWW....

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9:00 AM

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Tidbit....

I have been lied to a deceived
And every word they said I believed
You’re my one and only…
And every word they said was phony
I cried myself to sleep countless nights
Been involved in shouting matches and midnight fights
Been molested and abused
Hugged, kissed, fucked over and misused.

If I had to go thru the bullshit to get to you
Then I’m glad I did
If I had to do it all over again
I wouldn’t change a thing
You don’t know how deep my love flows for you
I would walk a thousand miles for you
I have prayed a million prayers for you
I’m glad you found me and I found you.

If we don’t make it and our love doesn’t survive…
If it can’t hold up to the test of time,
Then what would I do?
I would keep on loving you.
For who you are, and who you grew to be.
You have given me a lesson on love that will speak through eternity.

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8:22 AM

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A day and a year older and wiser

Tuesday, April 05, 2005


It's been a busy few days and I wrote up some posts to post so I will post them for the appropiate days, so you may wanna scroll down :-).
Last night L brought over some of the parts for my hoopty. A whole bunch of stuff, and they are sitting in the back seat of my vehicle. This weekend we will embark on fixing some of the things that need to be fixed. I will be rolling up my sleeves and changing some spark plugs and all that good stuff. Yeah.
It's my mom's birthday AND L's mom birthday on saturday, and my grandma's birthday is on Friday as well. The other night I was laying in bed trying to rack my brains as to suitable birthday gifts ya know. So I have come up a gift for my mom. I am gonna get her her facial, she likes those things. I will take her there on sunday and then take her to the MAC store and let her buy what she wants. As for L's mom, I'm gonna get her a card and I was thinking of getting her a gift certificate to Barnes and Nobles but I did that last year so I'm not sure. And I know if I ask him he is gonna tell me, you dont have to get her anything, and I'm, not trying to hear that. My grandmother..that's easy, all she wants to do is gourge herself with food, so I am going to make her some lamb chops...she loves that stuff...with potatoes and all the trimmings.
Wednesday we are off to the circus with L's family so I need to get his mom's stuff today or tomorrow during lunch. His grandma is gonna be there and I LOVE HER! She is so full of life and energy when I met her the first time, she was a trip. I figure since I will be in B&N anyway to get L's mom something for her birthday, I am going to pick her up a copy of Angels & Demons because she loves to read and I think she will love that book. I got her Coldest Winter Ever the last time and she seemed to enjoy it...
Is that bribery? me getting his family things? I dunno.....

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Stay away from the big CONES

Monday, April 04, 2005


This is a long one but very interesting. I have been doing lots of reading about hair care and products. After reading this article and talking to a friend I went to take a look at the products in my bathroom, she told me the key was to look at all the products that end with --cone, like dimethclyCONE, and they all had ingredients on this list. That makes me nervous. I have to really be careful to make sure I read what these products have. I am have to go out and buy some natural oils and start making my own stuff.

1. ISOPROPYL ALCOHOL: This is a solvent and denaturant (poisonous substance that changes another substances natural qualities). Isopropyl alcohol is found in hair color rinses, body rubs, hand lotions, after-shave lotions, fragrances and many other cosmetics. This petroleum-derived substance is also used in antifreeze and as a solvent in shellac. Napptural hair reacts very badly to isoalcohol and this ingredient should be avoided at ALL costs. It will dry your hair out and break it off. According to A Consumer's Dictionary of Cosmetic Ingredients, inhalation or ingestion of the vapor may cause headaches, flushing, dizziness, mental depression, nausea, vomiting, narcosis and even coma.
2. MINERAL OIL & PETROLATUM: The best baby oil is made from almonds. But the oil which being sold as baby oil is 100% mineral oil. Mineral oil is a derivative of crude oil (petroleum) that is used industrially as a cutting fluid and lubricating oil. This commonly used petroleum ingredient coats the skin and hair just like plastic wrap. The skin's natural barrier is disrupted as this plastic coating inhibits its ability to breathe and absorb the Natural Moisture Factor (moisture and nutrition). The skin's ability to release toxins and wastes is impossible through this "plastic wrap," which can promote acne and other disorders. It further hinders normal skin respiration/transpiration by keeping oxygen out. This process slows down skin function and normal cell development causing the skin to prematurely age. Holding in large a mounts of moisture in the skin can "flood" the biology and may result in immature, unhealthy, sensitive skin that dries out easily. Petrolatum - A petroleum-based grease that is used industrially as a grease component. Petrolatum exhibits many of the same potentially harmful properties as mineral oil.Honestly, this stuff belongs in your engine, not on your hair. Regardless of "Well, my Grandma used vaseline on her hair and it grew ", the bottom line is this stuff is bad. It was bad for Grandma and it is bad for you. Period.
3. PEG: This is an abbreviation for polyethylene glycol that is used in making cleansers to dissolve oil and grease as well as thicken products. Because of their effectiveness, PEG's are often used in caustic spray on oven cleaners and yet are found in many personal care products. PEG's contribute to stripping the Natural Moisture Factor, leaving the immune system vulnerable. They are also potentially carcinogenic.
4. PROPYLENE GLYCOL (PG): As a "surfactant" or wetting agent and solvent, this ingredient is actually the active component in antifreeze. There is no difference between the PG used in industry and the PG used in personal care products. It is used in industry to break down protein and cellular structure (what the skin is made of) yet is found in most forms of make-up, hair products, lotions, after-shave, deodorants, mouthwashes and toothpaste. It is also used in food processing. Because of its ability to quickly penetrate the skin, the EPA requires workers to wear protective gloves, clothing and goggles when working with this toxic substance. The Material Safety Data Sheets warn against skin contact, as PG has systemic consequences such as brain, liver and kidney abnormalities. Consumers are not protected nor is there a warning label on products such as stick deodorants, where the concentration is greater than that in most industrial applications.
5. SODIUM LAURYL SUFATE (SLS) & SODIUM LAURETH SULFATE (SLES): SLS is used in testing labs as the standard ingredient to irritate skin. Used as detergents and surfactants, these closely related compounds are found in car wash soaps, garage floor cleaners and engine degreasers. Yet both SLS and SLES are used more widely as one of the major ingredients in cosmetics, toothpaste, hair conditioner and about 90% of all shampoos and products that foam. They are used in personal-care products because they are cheap. A small amount generates a large amount of foam, and when salt is added it thicken to give the illusion of being thick and concentrated. (SOME OF THE NITROSATING AGENTS ARE: SLS, SLES, DEA, TEA, MEA). Shampooing the hair with a product contaminated with these substances can lead to its absorption into the body at levels much higher than eating nitrite-contaminated foods.Mark Fearer in an article, Dangerous Beauty, says, "...in tests, animals that were exposed to SLS experienced eye damage, along with depression, labored breathing, diarrhea, severe skin irritation and corrosion and death." According to the American College of Toxicology states both SLS and SLES can cause malformation in children's eyes. Other research has indicated SLS may be damaging to the immune system, especially within the skin. Skin layers may separate and inflame due to its protein denaturing properties. It is possibly the most dangerous of ad ingredients in personal care products. Research has shown that SLS when combined with other chemicals can be transformed into nitrosamines, a potent class of carcinogens, which causes the body to absorb nitrates at higher levels than eating nitrate contaminated food." According to the American College of Toxicity report, "SLS stays in the body for up to five days..." Other studies have indicated that SLS easily penetrates through the skin and enters and maintains residual levels in the heart, the liver, the lungs and the brain. This poses serious questions regarding its potential health threat through its use in shampoos, cleansers and toothpaste,"
Studies show its danger potential to be great when used in personal-care products. Toxicity - A serious problem with these chemicals is that they may be contaminated with NDELA (N-nitrosodiethanolamine), one of the nitrosamines and a potent carcinogen, according to a 1978 FDA report.Sodium Laureth Sulfate (SLES) - SLES is the alcohol form (ethoxylated) of SLS. It is slightly less irritating than SLS, but may be more drying. Both SLS and SLES can enter the blood stream. They may cause potentially carcinogenic formations of nitrates and dioxins to form in shampoos and cleansers by reacting with other product ingredients. Large amounts of nitrates may enter the blood system from just one shampooing. Contains ether.
6. CHLORINE: According to Doris J. Rapp, M.D., author of Is This your Child's World? exposure to chlorine in tap water, Showers, pool, laundry products, cleaning agents, food processing, sewage systems and many others, can effect health by contributing to asthma, hay fever, anemia, bronchitis, circulatory collapse, confusion, delirium diabetes, dizziness, irritation of the eye, mouth, nose throat, lung, skin and stomach, heart disease, high blood pressure and nausea. It is also a possible cause of cancer. Even though you will not see Chlorine on personal care product labels, it is important for you to be aware of the need to protect your skin when bathing and washing your hair.
7. DEA (diethanolamine) MEA (momoethnanolamine) TEA (triethanolamine): DEA and MEA are usual listed on the ingredients label in conjunction with the compound being neutralized. Thus look for names like Cocamide DEA or MES, Lauramide DEA, etc. These are hormone disrupting chemicals and are known to form cancer causing nitrates and nitrosamines. . These are commonly found in most personal care products that foam, including bubble baths, body washes, shampoos, soaps and facial cleansers. On the show, CBS This Morning, Roberta Baskin revealed that a recent government report shows DEA and MEA are readily absorbed in the skin. Dr. Samuel Epstein, Professor of Environmental Health at the University of Illinois said "repeated skin applications of DEA-based detergents resulted in a major increase in the incidence of two cancers - liver and kidney cancers." John Bailey, who oversees the cosmetic division for the FDA said the new study is especial important since "the risk equation changes significantly for children."
8. FD & C Color PIGMENTS: Many color pigments cause skin sensitivity and irritation. Absorption of certain colors can cause depletion of oxygen in the body and even death according to A Consumer's dictionary of Cosmetic Ingredients. Debra Lynn Dadd says in Home Safe Home: "Colors that can be used in foods, drug, and cosmetics are made from coal tar. There is a great deal of controversy about their use, because animal studies have shown almost all of them to be carcinogenic."
9. FRAGRANCE: Fragrance is present in most deodorants shampoos, sunscreens, skin care, body care and baby products. Many of the compounds in fragrance are carcinogenic or otherwise toxic. "Fragrance on a label can indicate the presence of up to 4,000 separate ingredients. Most or all of them are synthetic. Symptoms reported to the FDA have included headaches, dizziness, rashes, skin discoloration, violent coughing and vomiting, and allergic skin irritation. Clinical observation by medical doctors have shown that exposure to fragrances can affect the central nervous system, causing depression, hyperactivity, irritability, inability to cope, and other behavioral changes," (Home Safe Home). For better health try purchasing unscented products and for fragrance, adding a natural essential oil.
10. IMIDAZOLIDINYL UREA and DMDM HYDANTOIN: These are just two of the many preservatives that release formaldehyde (formaldehyde-donors). According to the Mayo clinic, formaldehyde can irritate the respiratory system, cause skin reactions and trigger heart palpitations. Exposure to formaldehyde may cause joint pain, allergies, depression, headaches, chest pains, ear infections, Chronic fatigue, dizziness and loss of sleep. It can also aggravate coughs and colds and trigger asthma. Serious side effects include weakening of the immune system and cancer. Nearly all brands of skin, body and hair care, antiperspirants and nail polish found in stores contain formaldehyde-releasing ingredients.

If the above information is not enough to make you read labels on things before using them on yourself of your babies, nothing will.

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10:42 PM

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Emotional Rollercoaster

Sunday, April 03, 2005


I have started on my journey to being nappy.

I went today to get my hair braided. I got the afro-kinky twists put in and I love them. Right now I am just trying to cut out all the products that aren’t helping my hair which is damn near everything. Portia gave me a recipe for a vinegar wash for my scalp which I need to get pronto cuz my scalp is itchy right about now. I mixed the Olive oil with warm water and sprayed my hair and my scalp this morning which gave me some relief, it felt great. But I have been seeing all these recipes for other types of hair care so I need to just buy some of the essential oils and get started. This will be interesting.

I had my book club meeting today as well, so right after the last braid was in place I hopped in the car and zipped to the train station. Of course I was already late but the train situation didn’t help because even though the raised the fares on us, the service is going down the crapper. I mean everyday there seems to be an issue with the train. Even the A train which I go out of my way to take because it is faster than the E train is starting to act up. Anyway, the meeting was wonderful, I enjoy going to them, talking about the books and then grubbing. The food was AMAZING. I keep thinking about it, which is a sure sign that I’m greedy, which is something I already knew. I love food, perhaps a little too much but I love it. Yea so again the FOOD was AMAZING. They had this brown rice with mushrooms…to die for, and the pad thai, scallion pancakes, I can’t wait to take Leslie there when she comes, she will love it. I digress. I love meeting with the bookclub, they are all so smart and sean is a nutcase, he keeps us in stitches. When I was at the hairdresser, I was getting emotional like only I can do, and I contemplated not carrying on with the club anymore. Just because I get so into the sending out my evites and then having people say they will be there and then the day of the event, I either can’t reach them to confirm they are coming (which usually means they aren’t) or they tell me they haven’t read the book which in my opinion (stop me if I’m wrong) is the point of a bookclub….you know reading the book and all. So for a little bit I felt frustrated, mad and annoyed. But I thought about it and I know for me I don’t want people to be there unless they want to be. I want them to enjoy it. The books, the friends, the food, the talking, being introspective about the novels we read, and like Sunday learning something new everytime…like breast-feeding…long story. So I get to the restaurant and because I am late they are all there at the bar waiting for me(even though I told them they could start without me), and it makes me feel…..Good.

On a side note, this lady at my church who I grew up with, asked me out the blue if I knew anything about bookclub because she wanted to start one for the Single Life Ministry Department, which I was estatic about.I had pondered starting one there for Mothers and Daughters, but I didn’t because of the Crochet Club bust. Anyway she asked me to help her with hers and I would love to! So I will be helping her get that club together.

I’m sorry about the fragmented way I wrote this entry…my mind is kinda all over the place today

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8:50 PM

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*Tap Tap Tap* I this thing on?

Friday, April 01, 2005


I went to an open mic poetry event up in Harlem at Sisters Bookstore with AB. It was great. We walked in and the people there were so friendly to us, like we had known them all along. It was supposed to start at 8pm but you know black folk….always on CP time. LOL. Well the decided to get started at about 8:30 and at that point there were 6 of us, 2 moderators, the store owner, a writer and AB and myself. but as soon as she started all these people started filing in. All in all there were about 15-20 people there and there were only about 5 women, which I thought was amazing since most men I know don’t really go functions like this. There was a father and son duo that performed their pieces one after the other and I’m telling you the son BLEW IT UP! He was great, saying some real thangs. I have never been to an open mic before…well not really…college don’t count. Does it? But anywho…I have NEVER even thought about performing one of my pieces in front of actual people. I guess I feel too emotionally connected to the words I write. I would probably pass out. Lol. But the moderator kept insinuating that she wanted us to do something at some time in the future.ahh nah.
But what is weird about those events that after you go all off a sudden your creative juices start flowing and you have all this stuff in your head. I need to start carrying a little notebook with me to capture them on the page. How many of you guys write? And how many of you share what you write?

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