Slow Metamorphosis

So much to share...where do I start.

At my last entry, I made mention that I won a contest and as a result won a shirt from Buttafly Unltd that says " I Love My hair" A kin to the I love NY shirts...Having NEVER won anything in my life before I was rather excited.
(Please excuse the mess)




I wore the shirt to a napp.turality gathering where I met alot of fellow nappy sisters. All of them had such gorgeous hair that I was totally thrilled and motivated to stay the path. The table was so long that I couldnt get everyone in the shot but here are some pics






They were such lovely people, they brought products to exchange and give away which was so sweet and it was a positive experience for the most part. Happy to be Nappy!



As for work...no lie it has been so stressful that I can hardly take it. I have been struggling mentally with some things...but this friday my manager and I worked it out and things are looking up. I have a new team member joining my department which I will be supervising so my team is expanding. I look forward to it....I think. lol. Next week I have some meetings scheduled which I hope will set the tone of our department so that will help. This quarter has been a long haul. Good news thanks to Sparkpeople and going to the gym and all, so far I have lost 10 pounds...YAY!

Oh yeah back to my hair....I got this stuff from http://oyinhandmade.com I ordered the sample kit and LET ME TELLL YOU!!!! The whipped Pudding is my new best friend, it smells ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS. It smells like chocolate. I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT. I am about to head into the shower now and use the honey hemp conditioner and the greg juice....I cant wait. I will put more details about it on the hair portion of this page.

Anyway I am off until lat

I've been hit by Panhandler so I figured I would post it today

Four jobs you've had in your life:
Customer Service Rep
bookstore attendant
Manager
Database Publications coordinator.

Four movies you could watch over and over:
SoulFood
The Best Man
The Joy Luck Club
10 Things I hate about you

Four places you've lived:
Jamaica - Salts Spring, Montego Bay
Apopka FL
Queens, NY
Buffalo, NY

Four TV shows you love to watch:
America's Next Top Model
Law and Order
American Idol
Charmed
Grey's Anatomy
Deperate Housewives

I'm a new to 24 too but I'm loving it....yes I know its more than four...sue me!

Four places you've been on vacation:
London
Nassau, Bahamas
St. Thomas
Chicago

Four websites you visit daily:
www.google.com
http://us.hsbc.com
nappturality.com
sparkpeople.com (thanks Edwidge)


Four of your favorite foods:
Fried Dumpling, Ackee and Saltfish
Stew Chicken with RIce and Peas
Oxtail
Stew Peas with white Rice

Four places you'd rather be:
On the beach
In a spa
In my bed
Cuddling with my lova!

Four albums you can't live without:
Jill Scott -- all of em
Lauryn Hill
Fred Hammond Purpose by Design
CeCe Winans - Alone in his presence

I tag..... NO ONE how about that!

For some reason this morning I woke up and was feeling like…damn time is really flying. Where does the time really go…
My mom came into my room last night because apparently she “needs” me to help her with her masters thesis. So I’m of course I will help her but I refuse to write the whole paper for her. Like NO! So I kept thinking…I NEED to get my ass back into school before my brain shrivels up and I am unable to think. Especially with all my peoples around me doing the school thing I would be in good company…fa sho! L is back in school – last night was his first class and I was sooo happy for him and Reenie is back in school fulltime – she quit her jobbie job and is back in school. My mom, Ayana, and K are in school, finishing school and getting ready to go back to school so I’m feeling like there is no better time than now. And the thought actually made me excited. I have however been wrestling with the thought of what exactly I want to do. I’m thinking I want to teach literature to college students in the future...but that’s the future…for now I cant tell you what I want to do cuz I don’t want to jinx myself. Lol. So its off to get prepped for the GRE’s and all that.
I have started a list of all the things I want to do by the time I am 30 – so the countdown begins and I don’t have that much time.

So did anyone see American Idol last night – I did and these people are total clowns – jokesters – do you really think you can sing??? I was cracking up and of course my cousin kept calling me throughout the show even though she knows the calls during commercial break ONLY rule – she didn’t talk she just laughed all hard in my ear..lol. Problems! My room is coming together…doesn’t look bad at all I just have to fold up this laundry and I’m good.

For the past few weeks I have been drudging around feeling really heavy and that was my main motivator to starting this diet and exercise thing up again. So I started officially on Sunday and weird as it sounds I don’t feel as heavy – matter of fact I feel lighter. I decided to start with the diet first and then move add the exercise portion on a week later so this Sunday I will be hitting the gym after a long hiatus….

I heard someplace that your personal living space is a key indicator of what’s going on in your life and if that’s the case….then I’m in trouble. I read someone’s blog last night and they mentioned their room was a mess and I had to chuckle cuz err um….they should see mine! Clothes on the floor – it’s a shame…..shame shame. I hate walking in there its like on the SIMS game if your SIM doesn’t clean then their surroundings indicator goes down, I can literally feel mine dropping as my key turns in the lock. I am so lazy too when I get home who feels like cleaning??? Who feels like doing anything aside from getting under the covers and just watching a good episode of law and order or something? Well tonight I plan to clean up a lil bit…just a lil bit…we will see. Lol

Work is like it always is rolling deadlines and dealing with people who need to get knocked out. But I feel some retribution yesterday my boss made mention that she noticed I was frustrated with a particular coworker. Sooooo we are taking steps to fix it or break it. This should be interesting to say the least.

My quarterly deadline has come and gone and we are finished with yet another book. Thank God! I on the other hand am not really happy because it was late and that doesn’t work well with me at all. It happens but it shouldn’t be happening on my shift. The stress of it all is affecting everyone I can tell. Yesterday I was moody and annoyed for several reasons – I was tense because I was trying to get the deadline done and it wasn’t looking like it was going to happen. I was annoyed at one co-worker specifically who must really feel like he is on his own schedule – which apparently isn’t the same schedule as everyone else…and of course there are the countless annoying questions that he asks…Which I seriously feel like I am NOT going to answer. NOPE I am on strike. I can’t help promote foolishness. You know your job now do it. L is out of town this week with his job and I miss him….I usually rant and rave about this stuff to him but alas no such relief. My mom and I went to BJ’s last night and on the way we home we were cracking up laughing at an inside joke….laughing so hard in fact that I could barely see the road…WHOOO that was funny. Sunday was my book club meeting and we had a nice little turn out in a nice vegetarian place. The book was so good that I launched into a whole conversation about the book and how the characters seem so Caribbean it was crazy. I wonder if I’m the only person who thought that?? The title: The Hero’s Walk by Anita Rau Badami. Check it out. Thanks willowtree and God’s Child for sharing. It’s a short post today as I am doing it from work and there is still so much to be done.

Today is one of those days

As with the last post I have been reflecting over the year.

I have changes I want and need to make.

This year my main focus is changing my eating habits and getting healthy.

Last night I was watching The Biggest Loser on TV…. And ok why was I crying!

Like those people looked great at the end…I need to get with it.

Tonight after work I am going to the Laundromat to do like 2 months worth of laundry – its scary how much clothes are in those bags for real!

Then this weekend I’m headed to the supermarket with my healthy list in hand and the journey begins….pray for a sistah

Happy New Year

2005 has come and gone rather quickly and over the past few days I have taken some time to reflect on all that has happened; the good the bad and the ugly.


I have met a lot of interesting people over the past year, people who read this blog and have reached out to me to share their lives and for that I am grateful. Ro was the one who introduced me to this blogging thing and who would have thought it would have led to all that it did…bloggers meet up in both NY and Chicago, meeting lovely GC who I have such an appreciation for her inner beauty and poise and also just learning about people I already know in person. On the work front, I was promoted twice this year and in my current position in truth I really didn’t think I was ever going to get to a point where I FULLY felt comfortable in my role, but now while things are still hectic (and they always will be) I have a better command of my position and what I need to be doing and I am getting to the point where everything is coming together for me. This year I’m working on implementing changes to my department in hopes that it will streamline our workflow and make things go smoother and everyone in my department is cross-trained so everyone knows each others jobs and can pitch in whenever needed. On the love life, things are going well with L, we are still together, I still love him and am still excited by him, he is still my supastar. I give him a hard way to go sometimes if I don’t get my way and this should go under the ugly but its something that I am working on…not being a spoiled brat when it comes to him. On Monday my company had to work – they didn’t give us the day off and while it was quite I had some issues that came up that made me have to stay late to finish some things up. L called me and offered to come to my job take my car keys, get on the A train, go get my car and drive it to my job so that when I left work I could just hop in my car without taking the train. I was very….. surprised that he offered that to me, I thought it was sooo sweet of him. In the end he came and kept me company at work, played spades while I finished up and then took me home. I was so impressed by him but he does things like that on a regular and that’s what makes me feel….soft towards him. To quote him – this is going to be a good year for us. On the family side – new years was good for us, we had worship together and had a huge breakfast and sat around for hours talking and laughing….I love my family they are all characters and this year I know that I have to spend some more time with my younger brother because he is getting to that age – and I want to have a hand in how he treats women and an impact on his schooling. I don’t want him to be like me – going off to college and having no idea what it means to be black in this country. I reconnected with old friends this year – friends that I missed and don’t spend enough time with….Reenie, Ayana and Tricia….Yve and I are a lot closer—probably because of the baby which I cant wait to get here and Ro who I think is such a sweetheart….and I’ve lost some friends also. I have learned that sometimes people aren’t who you think they are and they hold malice in their heart towards you….they gots to go. I don’t have time for that.

My hair has been a big thing for me this year…January 1st was the anniversary of the last perm I had so it’s been a year with no perm…that is huge for me. Initially I had said that I would transition for a year – meaning no perms for a year but wearing braids to help me with that but mid-year I gave up the fight. I couldn’t do it anymore. I cut in June and then again in August and again in September, now I am growing it out. I’m learning so much about my hair and what it does and I love it…each and every nap. The hardest part of this journey was NOT getting the support from L who totally hated the fact that I cut my hair off, and even though he threatened to leave me…lol he stayed. I had to do what I had to do for me. I couldn’t take the perms, the wraps, the roller sets, the burning the dandruff the rules to having a perm….I couldn’t. I have never in my life felt so free. I can walk in the rain and it don’t mean a thing and I can wear it curly or blow it out and rock the fro and I feel true to myself and who I am and I’m in the place that I always wanted to be. I’m loving it. Nadia and Nicole if your reading this….you can do it too you know…. To all the transitioners…you can do it!!! LOL ok….

I think I’m done although I know I will remember something later on. I have a hair journal too in case anyone wants to check it out aside from my other blog attached to this one. The URL is http://fotki.com/nubesque. I cant wait to see what the new year holds for me…Happy New Year ya’ll!